Jason Jesus Gonzalez Ramos
August 19,2010 5:07 am
It’s a week or so after Christmas break. I have been avoiding my mom
for the past 3 weeks. Doing the same thing after school my boyfriend
picks me up and we just go hang out. Sometimes when he has to work
when I get out of school I just go hang out with my friends. I avoid my
mother because my period is late and when I go brush my teeth in the
morning I wanna put everything I had just eaten in the toilet. I have also
been very moody lately. Everything that my boyfriend says to me seems
to upset me.
On December 22 2009, in the early morning I took a pregnancy test.
Right after I got in the shower so I wouldn’t just be there unpatiently
waiting for the results. That morning I took the fastest shower ever.
Something that I could never do even if I was running late. As I looked
at the test there was a really dark line and a faded one I didn’t believe or
at least I didn’t want to believe it. I then quickly texted my boyfriend
and he got all excited.
After that morning I really started to avoid my mom. I wouldn’t come
home until late at night, if I was hanging out with my boyfriend. If I was
hanging out with my friends, I would wait until the last bus would pass.
One night it was super cold and I didn’t really feel like walking home in
the dark and cold so I decided to call my mom and ask if she would pick
me up at the bus stop. When she answered the phone she said that she
would come to pick me up because she was going to talk to me. I asked
her about what and she said,” well why haven’t you gotten your period.”
I told her I didn’t know. She said okay, well when I come get you we are
going to the store and we are going to get you a pregnancy test I said
okay and hung up.
I was with my friend and it was time to catch the bus. The bus
ride home was so long I really didn’t want to get home. Finally it was my
stop I look out of the window and my dad is there waiting for me. The
first thing I say was “hi and you guys are right I am pregnant”. His only
response was that we would tell my mom when we got home. When we
got home my mom was eating dinner and right after she finished eating
she sat on the couch and I just blurted it out. She told me that she knew
all along. We talked about what I wanted to do and we were going thru
my
choices when she said that I had to keep It. She asked many questions
and gave me many orders. I told her that I wanted to go live with my
baby’s dad and she really didn’t want to agree with me. She was just so
scared that I was going to stop coming to school. She really didn’t want
that for me she wanted me to graduate from highschool and go to
college. At the time I kind of felt like I failed my mom. Because everytime
she would bring me to school she would always tell me to notice all the
teen moms. I would always say "that’s never going to be me I never
want to have kids.”
The week after I had shared the news with my family I moved in
with my baby’s dad. He came to my house and I told my mom that I was
going to go live with him. My mom was kind of sad and asked me if I was
sure that that’s wat I wanted. I sayed yes and she began to give him
instructions. Her only rules to let me move out were that I had to keep
going to school and college she said she was still goin to pay for my
college education as long as I did good. We both agreed and I continued
to take my stuff out.The first couple of weeks were kind of sad I was
really home sick and I wanted my mommy. As time passed I got more
used to being on my own.
The weeks passed and I would see no change in my body I was
stil the skinny twig I had always been. when I was about 4 months
pregnant I was laying in bed still when all of the sudden I felt something
in my lower belly get hard. I pulled the blankets to my upper legs and
just stared and my belly. Then all of a sudden I saw this little ball
between my hip bones I freaked out I had the strangest feeling ever. It
was strange weird and scary but at the same time it was exciting and
very heart warming. I was so hapy I felt my baby move and from that
day on I would feel him move I still didn’t have a belly but I would still
get excited
.
At about the 6th month I started to show a little bit it seem as if I
was sticking my tummy out I felt so weird. My pants also began to not fit
me any more it was so frustrating and sad. Even though I was still
comfortable to sleep it was becoming difficult. I was so used to laying
on my tummy that then I couldn’t anymore. When I was hit the seventh
month I exploded. I felt so big just like a cow. I felt big but I was
enjoying my pregnancy. At my 8th month I couldn’t wait for baby Jason
to come out. Beside the fact that I was so big I couldn’t walk any more I
would get tired so easily and my feet would begin to swell up.
During my pregnancy I would still do things and go out. In my 7th
month we would still go dancing. We would also go fishing a lot thru out
my pregnancy. I would also do a lot of shopping and a lot of walking
even if my feet would swell up. The last dance that I went to was to
grabriela’s quincenera and that was 10 days from my baby’s birth day.
That day I danced a lot. When I would go out I would get so sad because
I couldn’t wear my high heals and I didn’t feel like a women. I kno it was
strange but that’s just my silly way of feeling.
The day my water broke I was at the bank with my baby’s grandma I
still remember how it all happened. Early in the morning I was invited
to go to he bank and to run some errands with my baby’s grandparents.
A couple of days before I couldn’t sleep and I had really bad back pains.
I would soak in the bath tub with warm water and that seemed to help.
Since that had been happening to me I decided to go and take my mind
of all the uncomfortableness that I was feeling and all the pain. So at
about 3 oclock in the afternoon we were at our last stop and I had to go
pee but I decided that I was going to hold it since it was the last stop and
we were going home already any ways. We were taking for ever and I
couldn’t hold it any more and all of a sudden I felt that a little bit came
out, but it was weird because it didn’t really quite feel like it was coming
from my bladder. I asked for the bath room at the bank they let me use
there private bath rooms. So I went in and I did my business but it
seemed like I was still peeing with out control. I knew something wasn’t
right so I decided to text my sister in law to see what it felt like for your
water to break.
We headed home and on our way I texted my boyfriend and I told
him I thought my water broke. I also told my boyfriends parents. When I
was in the car every little jumped made more and more water leak by
the time I got home my jeans were wet as if I had urinated myself, that I
have to say was very very embarrassing. I rite away went into the
shower. By then an hour had barely passed.
At 4 we left the house and at like 4:15 pm on Wednesday the 18th of
August I was checked into the hospital’s family birth place. I had no
painful contractions till about 3 in the morning the next day. When my
contractions came I almost wanted to die I told the nurse I was In bad
pain and she asked if I wanted to get in the bath tub. I said yes and she
quickly got everything ready. The bath tub was great it helped so much
. After almost an hour and a half the pain was too strong to handle so I
asked for an epidural. Right away I felt great I had no pain and I was
ready to give birth the nurse came in after 15 minutes and checked me
and sai that it was time to push. After almos 20 minutes of pushing my
baby boy finally arrived. Jason Jesus Gonzalez was born on August
19,2010 at 5:07 am
for the past 3 weeks. Doing the same thing after school my boyfriend
picks me up and we just go hang out. Sometimes when he has to work
when I get out of school I just go hang out with my friends. I avoid my
mother because my period is late and when I go brush my teeth in the
morning I wanna put everything I had just eaten in the toilet. I have also
been very moody lately. Everything that my boyfriend says to me seems
to upset me.
On December 22 2009, in the early morning I took a pregnancy test.
Right after I got in the shower so I wouldn’t just be there unpatiently
waiting for the results. That morning I took the fastest shower ever.
Something that I could never do even if I was running late. As I looked
at the test there was a really dark line and a faded one I didn’t believe or
at least I didn’t want to believe it. I then quickly texted my boyfriend
and he got all excited.
After that morning I really started to avoid my mom. I wouldn’t come
home until late at night, if I was hanging out with my boyfriend. If I was
hanging out with my friends, I would wait until the last bus would pass.
One night it was super cold and I didn’t really feel like walking home in
the dark and cold so I decided to call my mom and ask if she would pick
me up at the bus stop. When she answered the phone she said that she
would come to pick me up because she was going to talk to me. I asked
her about what and she said,” well why haven’t you gotten your period.”
I told her I didn’t know. She said okay, well when I come get you we are
going to the store and we are going to get you a pregnancy test I said
okay and hung up.
I was with my friend and it was time to catch the bus. The bus
ride home was so long I really didn’t want to get home. Finally it was my
stop I look out of the window and my dad is there waiting for me. The
first thing I say was “hi and you guys are right I am pregnant”. His only
response was that we would tell my mom when we got home. When we
got home my mom was eating dinner and right after she finished eating
she sat on the couch and I just blurted it out. She told me that she knew
all along. We talked about what I wanted to do and we were going thru
my
choices when she said that I had to keep It. She asked many questions
and gave me many orders. I told her that I wanted to go live with my
baby’s dad and she really didn’t want to agree with me. She was just so
scared that I was going to stop coming to school. She really didn’t want
that for me she wanted me to graduate from highschool and go to
college. At the time I kind of felt like I failed my mom. Because everytime
she would bring me to school she would always tell me to notice all the
teen moms. I would always say "that’s never going to be me I never
want to have kids.”
The week after I had shared the news with my family I moved in
with my baby’s dad. He came to my house and I told my mom that I was
going to go live with him. My mom was kind of sad and asked me if I was
sure that that’s wat I wanted. I sayed yes and she began to give him
instructions. Her only rules to let me move out were that I had to keep
going to school and college she said she was still goin to pay for my
college education as long as I did good. We both agreed and I continued
to take my stuff out.The first couple of weeks were kind of sad I was
really home sick and I wanted my mommy. As time passed I got more
used to being on my own.
The weeks passed and I would see no change in my body I was
stil the skinny twig I had always been. when I was about 4 months
pregnant I was laying in bed still when all of the sudden I felt something
in my lower belly get hard. I pulled the blankets to my upper legs and
just stared and my belly. Then all of a sudden I saw this little ball
between my hip bones I freaked out I had the strangest feeling ever. It
was strange weird and scary but at the same time it was exciting and
very heart warming. I was so hapy I felt my baby move and from that
day on I would feel him move I still didn’t have a belly but I would still
get excited
.
At about the 6th month I started to show a little bit it seem as if I
was sticking my tummy out I felt so weird. My pants also began to not fit
me any more it was so frustrating and sad. Even though I was still
comfortable to sleep it was becoming difficult. I was so used to laying
on my tummy that then I couldn’t anymore. When I was hit the seventh
month I exploded. I felt so big just like a cow. I felt big but I was
enjoying my pregnancy. At my 8th month I couldn’t wait for baby Jason
to come out. Beside the fact that I was so big I couldn’t walk any more I
would get tired so easily and my feet would begin to swell up.
During my pregnancy I would still do things and go out. In my 7th
month we would still go dancing. We would also go fishing a lot thru out
my pregnancy. I would also do a lot of shopping and a lot of walking
even if my feet would swell up. The last dance that I went to was to
grabriela’s quincenera and that was 10 days from my baby’s birth day.
That day I danced a lot. When I would go out I would get so sad because
I couldn’t wear my high heals and I didn’t feel like a women. I kno it was
strange but that’s just my silly way of feeling.
The day my water broke I was at the bank with my baby’s grandma I
still remember how it all happened. Early in the morning I was invited
to go to he bank and to run some errands with my baby’s grandparents.
A couple of days before I couldn’t sleep and I had really bad back pains.
I would soak in the bath tub with warm water and that seemed to help.
Since that had been happening to me I decided to go and take my mind
of all the uncomfortableness that I was feeling and all the pain. So at
about 3 oclock in the afternoon we were at our last stop and I had to go
pee but I decided that I was going to hold it since it was the last stop and
we were going home already any ways. We were taking for ever and I
couldn’t hold it any more and all of a sudden I felt that a little bit came
out, but it was weird because it didn’t really quite feel like it was coming
from my bladder. I asked for the bath room at the bank they let me use
there private bath rooms. So I went in and I did my business but it
seemed like I was still peeing with out control. I knew something wasn’t
right so I decided to text my sister in law to see what it felt like for your
water to break.
We headed home and on our way I texted my boyfriend and I told
him I thought my water broke. I also told my boyfriends parents. When I
was in the car every little jumped made more and more water leak by
the time I got home my jeans were wet as if I had urinated myself, that I
have to say was very very embarrassing. I rite away went into the
shower. By then an hour had barely passed.
At 4 we left the house and at like 4:15 pm on Wednesday the 18th of
August I was checked into the hospital’s family birth place. I had no
painful contractions till about 3 in the morning the next day. When my
contractions came I almost wanted to die I told the nurse I was In bad
pain and she asked if I wanted to get in the bath tub. I said yes and she
quickly got everything ready. The bath tub was great it helped so much
. After almost an hour and a half the pain was too strong to handle so I
asked for an epidural. Right away I felt great I had no pain and I was
ready to give birth the nurse came in after 15 minutes and checked me
and sai that it was time to push. After almos 20 minutes of pushing my
baby boy finally arrived. Jason Jesus Gonzalez was born on August
19,2010 at 5:07 am